Once I told him I would not marry him and even if i would, I would not want a baby. I just wanted to stay like how we are now, and things to be the same for years to come. He was sad, he didn’t understand the metaphor I must say.
I wanted not marriage, as I want him to be wanting me forever… always wanting me.
I wanted not baby, as I want to be his baby forever, his only baby always.
I love him, I am not sharing his love and affection with others, not even with our own kids. I want him to call me baby even at my aging years, I want him to always love me and pamper me like a baby, no matter how aged I would be then.
This Saturday is our 4th Anniversary…I dont have to wait till then to be ’surprised’…It was so unexpected! We were out in Sg Wang last Sat…
He asked me to look at the phones on display and asked which one do I like and he got the phone (MTRLA RZR V3i) for me - said it’s for our anniversary. It was only last weekend that he got me a moonstone pendant that I have always wanted - he’s showering me with gifts. I rather have all his time as luxury is earned with the sacrifice of time.
I am anticipating more weekends or even more nights without him around with his elevation in career. It makes me think if i should make myself busy too. I am considering the offer to work in China / Jakarta. It would be hard, it’s far and it would be long - a year. But on the flip side of that, a promotion entails my return.
Many things are supposed, scheduled to happen this year, and early next year. It’s scary how time flies and yet so many things are still undone. Gee, it’s high time now…