Chronicles of life

Feels so good to be in love, and to be loved.

Twenty minutes before this post, i met "mummy" and she was so caring towards me. Felt so warm and loved - she was really treating me like a baby. The way she asked about my thesis progress, the way she asked me what’s my plan for the weekend, the way she smiled at me…I’m so blessed to have her around. If it hadn’t been her guidance and motivation, i may have not been able to pull through and to excel in my studies. She showed me love, a motherly love when I’m far and away from my family. I am grateful for that.

….Logged on….

Got an offline message from hubby, asking me to listen to and detail the song "Love you more" by Ginuwine.

Searched for the song in Ares, (Molly joined in) completed download in two minutes. Here goes the lyric:

Since you came inside my life
You’ve giving me the best in you everyday and night
I felt my happiness in you make me wanna ride
To the end of any valley
Then you give me piece of mind
You bring me comfort to my soul give me such a high
No I will never let you know
Make me wanna fly to the top of every rainbow

[Chorus]
I love you more everyday
You show me love in every way
There’s nothing else for me to say
But I love you
I love you more in every way
There’s nothing else for me to say
But I love you

So promise you will never leave
You never say this is the end you’ll spend your life with me
You’ll be my wife and my best friend, raise a family
Something we both can treasure
Oohed yeah
In the mean time
I’m gon put in work
You gon be fine
You never have to work
So won’t you come and fly with me
Forever you and me
The times we suppose to be
I love you only

[Chorus]

I don’t stop loving you
And I won’t stop kissing you
You’re the reason why I smile
And I won’t stop holding you
And I won’t stop loving you
You’re the reason why I smile

Could only think of him and him and him…..just wanna hold him so tightly and say "i love you too, hubby." Wish i can preserve this moment of slumber - I’m drugged by the Ecstasy of love. How nice it is to feel "love" all the time? Makes me think of my "love(s)"…

My family, my best friends and buddies - especially Er, Molly, Sasha, Lynn, Billa, Kim(I miss u), Narjit(u too), Fyd, Jez, Gaya, Ona, Taz, Christine, Shane, Bro Zack, Chris, Paul,  etc…but not forgetting..

Dr. Zaidi, like a father to me, pulling me through against all odds.

Ma and "mummy", i promised i will make you proud - i will. I promised you i shall have my name listed in the Dean’s list - i did. Now, I promise you i shall have my name listed in the Vice Chancellor’s list - i will realise that promise by the end of this sem. I also promise you i shall graduate with a first class honours - I’m close and you shall witness my convo with honour, i promise you that. I won’t let you down because i owe you your love….

I love and treasure everyone of you; i love Fwurby, Fwuffy, Fluffy, Bean Bean, Molly, Ernie, Anne, Rebby, Snowy, Sam, Pete, Maro, my earrings, my chokers, my belts, my clothes, my shoes, my makeups, my laptop, my gadgets……(the list goes on)

MUAH*

Rushed from Dr. Soon’s class to this function. Made it there (Colonial Times, The Curve) safely but was late for an hour. The function was delayed coz of us, according to Nurul…

setteled down and was enjoying myself at the function…out of the blue, i saw one familiar built - Oh no! it’s hubby. I had to leave.

He’s really a killjoy, i hate him for that…i missed the entire make - up workshop and catwalk, and most importantly, the goodies bag containing a concealer, lipliner, eyeliner, lipgloss etc.

Sorry Nurul, feel guilty for have let you down. You have been so sweet to us and i really appreciate that…thanks for have given us the opportunity.

All turqoise, except for one korean floral printed dress. Really meningful, found them all after a day’s search. It’s even more meaningful when hubby accompanied me to do the shopping. All the girls there envied me, mane tak nye, their bf stayed outside, my bf went in with me and even chose the dress for me…I’m so proud of u B! Thank you so much!

He told me he was gay, it was all lie!

2.37 am, 26th August 2006, Klvn sent me a sms saying that he’s feeling unhappy over the many unhappy things - his job and his gf.

I forced open my eyes just to reply and in the same time console him, afraid that he might do something stupid. I misinterpreted his content, i thought he meant gf as in gay partner. How stupid i was, i should have knew his plan since we first met. Why making a lie about his status…and he made it all seem so real - even the flirting with my bf part. His calls and sms were initiated for my bf, i thought, he likes my bf, i thought. Oh! I WAS SO WRONG!

Think i should upgrade my processor - lagging lately.

He did all that just to get close to me…if i ever knew he’s straight, no chance he will be this close to me. Not even close!

Now everything makes sense, why all his calls and sms were about me and never about my bf (since he claimed that he likes my bf)…

No wonder he’s only asking me out, not my bf. Off all the places to go - swimming pool and cinema! Urgh! I immediately inform my bf about this though Ona told me not to (knowing my bf’s temper).

To make things worse, he dares to call and sms me when I’m with my bf. If i hadn’t stopped gummy, he would have been paralysed by now.

I’m not angry, but sad…it reminds me of someone, someone whom i was close to, someone i looked up as a brother. Too bad, he wanted a different relationship, which i can’t give. Eventually, we evolved from best friends to strangers…guess he’s still angry. Almost all platonic friendships of mine din’t last, this makes me refrain myself from getting too close to the opposite sex, - i dun want history to repeat itself.

I always blame myself for what have happened. What did i give not, what did i give more? What made them "divert", why can’t they just stay as friends, why they always want us to be their lover? Did i send the wrong signal?

We dint know we have to do a cat walk for the party tomorrow! All we were told was only the itinerary - where and when. Nothing about the cat walk.

On last minute notice, nurul informed us to bring necessary accessories for the cat walk. DUH! We are going for the goodies bag and the makeup workshop, now what!

If Uncle Boy sees me in the skimpy mini skirt, he would slaughter me…

Ona introduced this boutique to me, bought one coat, two skirts, and two dresses. Additional info for those vintage dress fans like me, "MINE KOREA" which is next to little.black.book has better vintage dresses collections than August8; not forgetting "Tulipe" which is just around the corner.

White Victorian style dress

Baby doll vintage dress

  Vintage skirt

Embroidered skirt

Floral printed Korean top(curve)

Floral printed vintage cotton shirt dress

(the curve)

Almond jacket (just what i need for my practicum)

My dream car

I started admiring vintage dresses after looking at mum’s old photos…now, I’m obsessed with those vintage dresses, specifically the 40s cotton vintage dresses.

It’s not easy to find one vintage-inspired-cotton- dress here. (perhaps it’s abundant in Korea and Thailand) Fortunately, i happen to discover one boutique in The Curve selling a collection of this design - AUGUST8.

I am thinking of having a collection of these dresses in my wardrobe as my working wear, what do you think? Will i look odd wearing it?

Nothing you could say
Can tear me away from my guy
Nothing you could do
‘Cause I’m stuck like glue to my guy

I’m stickin to my guy like a stamp to a letter
Like the birds of a feather
We stick together
I will tell you from the start
I can’t be torn apart from my guy

Nothing you can do
Could make me untrue to my guy
Nothing you could buy
Could make me tell a lie to my guy

I gave my guy my word of honour
To be faithful, and I’m gonna
You best be believing
I won’t be deceiving my guy

As a matter of opinion I think he’s top
My opinion is he’s the cream of the crop
As a matter of taste to be exact
He’s my ideal as a matter of fact

No muscle bound man could take my hand from my guy
No handsome face could ever take the place of my guy
He may not be a movie star
But when it comes to bein’ happy, we are
There’s not a man today
Who could take me away from my guy

No muscle bound man could take my hand from my guy
No handsome face could ever take the play of my guy
He may not be a movie star
But when it comes to bein’ happy we are
There’s not a man today
Who could take me away from my guy

There’s not a man today
Who could take me away from my guy

Dedicated to those who tried to break us apart…. (wink)

Supposing you’re indulged in the tale of "Elise in the wonderland"…and poor Elise is looking for this bunny:

Have u seen it anywhere? Please help Elise find this bunny…